My mom didn’t talk to me about certain things. I’m guessing she didn’t know what to say. She never discussed sex or how to avoid getting pregnant. Everything I learned on that subject I learned in school, racy novels and my older brother. Her lack of communication would carry into other areas of her life. As I got older, I realized there were a lot of things she didn’t want to talk about.
I learned that she found a lump in her breast back in1995. She did nothing and told no one. I learned that she spent all of my dad’s money and her’s by giving it away. I truly believe that she thought that God would provide for her. She believed in tithing and giving your money to the church.
In her last weeks, I confronted my mother. I needed some answers. Why had she done the things that she had done. Did she regret it? Did she wish she had done things differently. I needed to know. She was a smart woman. I didn’t understand. I begged her to tell me or at least explain to my father. She said nothing.